Need anger management.
Almost a month since I last posted anything here. I've been wanting to blog for quite a while, actually. I just couldn't find the time to, and to be honest I have no idea where to start writing cause there are just so many things I want to talk about.
First and foremost, school started. Brand new, fresh start for me. Since this is the first time that I actually venture into the beautiful World of Art, I had no idea what to expect at all. Being a latecomer wasn't cool either. I was two weeks late so basically everyone in class already had their own clique of friends and I find it rather difficult to fit in. Fortunately that didn't last long - one or two days max I'd say. Most of my classmates are pretty friendly and nice, classes are interesting and relaxing, lecturers are pretty laid back and fun... and I get long weekends for this semester cause I don't have to take Malaysian Studies every Friday!
Art school, to me, is an entirely new universe. I never thought school could be this relaxing and laid back (I'm talking about the atmosphere and environment here, this statement does not apply to the amount of assignments we get). Classes are interactive, lively, fun, and generally pleasant to be in. It is totally different from Law School, which is usually boring, strict, and sleep-bug-inducing. I did not expect so many drawing classes to be honest, and they had me nervous at first since I could not draw to save my life. Now I'm actually glad and is enjoying all these drawing classes *happy sigh* I'm so happy that I decided to do Art! (:
Although, I must say.... I do miss my classmates back in Law School. :(
Other than school, I've been going on Audition on a daily basis almost religiously (LOL). Can't help it, I'm a tourny whore like that. SEA expert tourny, couple tourny then aAU expert pre-tourny and tourny. That's about 3 hours a day for tournies only! I play mainly on SEA now, and only started to go back to aAU about a week ago cause of Tournament Servers. I left Mystique and joined DC-Squad on SEA because well... even though I hate to admit it, Mystique is no more than a dead fam nowadays (and this applies to Mystique on SEA and on aAU).
It was a tough decision really. I love Mystique, I love the history of Mystique and all the memories and laughter that I had in it. I've always had a vision for Mystique to become a really close knit family, where everyone are friends, play together and above all I want to be able to call it a FAMILY rather than just a group of people who only stick together temporarily. A place where we can go to when we just want to have some fun. We would take a temporary leave and still come back as if no time had lapsed in between. I actually thought that I was really close to achieving that goal, but I guess it's not as easy as I thought it would be. I suppose it is inevitable that it would come to this, though. With most of the members from the other side of the globe, time difference is already a huge issue in the fam. I was disappointed, I'm not going to lie and say that I wasn't; I was annoyed and frustrated then I got over it and I guess I don't really care anymore. As much as I hate to say this, the thought of disbanding Mystique crossed my mind a few times, though I quickly dismissed it taking into consideration the others [inactive] members in the fam who have been there from the very start. I would never kick them out of the fam cause they're inactive, and I'm not going to leave them famless just because I've left.
Anyways, I joined DC-Squad, which came as quite a surprise for the DCs (I imagine) and myself (and perhaps some other people too). Throughout my time on SEA there was no fam that I've considered joining before. DC was the first and I am pretty sure that it's going to be the last. It's everything that I've ever wanted in a fam - nice and mature people, no silly entry requirement (yeah I think it's absolutely stupid), recruit strictly by invitation only, active/inactive and loyal members, and although not an important factor; it is a proshiz fam which of course is a wonderful bonus. It has everything I've ever wanted for Mystique and more, and I just can't help but fall in love with the fam and everyone in it. Upon joining I asked Sui if it's okay for me to leave when Mystique becomes active again and she said that it's perfectly fine. But now... I don't think I would want to leave DC ever, even if it becomes inactive.
About a week or so ago I had a really huge mood swing. I got angry at every little single thing that crossed my path and threw big fits about them. I blame the hormone though =x It was that time of the month and also an outlet for all the frustration and anger that I have built up inside. Though, I must say, it was a bad time to go on aAU to find that most of the core members in Mystique gone. Even though I have been expecting it, I still find it highly frustrating (no thanks to rrw) and got fairly worked up by it. Did not help that most of them end up being in the one fam that is almost at the bottom of my list. Meh. And for some reason I just feel really disgusted by aAU and most of the people on it nowadays... with the exception of very few people that I still talk to. I mainly just go on for tourny and leave right after without talking to anyone in between. Some people noticed and asked why am I so quiet, I guess I am keeping a distant from people on there... purposely or subconsciously. That's cause most of the time I either 1) don't know what they're talking about. 2) don't care what they're talking about. and 3) don't want to get involved in all the stupid dramas. Trying to import some DCs over and hopefully that will ease my hatred towards the server... LOL. And so that I can finally fam battle on aAU again. Honey & bby... where art thou? ;wild
I hate the parking spaces outside my house. There are too many trees around and my car is always covered in leaves, branches and BIRD SHIT. RAWR so annoying -____- Yesterday I saw a centipede inside the bathroom while I was having a shower and today I am scared of going into the bathroom T_T
Wow.. this is a long post o_o